My new love story started

The last couple of days,i've being so stupid,idiot bloody fool!
I took 40pills because im stressed with my pains and be afraid of losing him..
We got noisy because of some misunderstanding that i've created at first.
He cant open his hp since those morning and im thinking that he made
something wrong behind my back.
And actually his phone got probs but when he told me nicely,
i cant accept and started to force him telling me the truth.
He keep sms-ing telling what was happen actually and i dont listen.
Until he said,he dont want to talk with me anymore because being just
like others,and im shocked.
For the 1st time,he said like that..he aint wanna contact me anymore.
And i thought that i will lose my love,my baby... T.T
I cant cry,but i really want to make myself calm.
I saw those pills on its trace and i took it.
This pain who made me sick and more sick!
Its made me unconfidence with myself since i took em..
I ate em,one by one.And the tears running out..and i dont even know how
many of em have i taken.
Until my stomach feels poignant and i cant take it no more.
I've vomit back all those pills and open my bedroom's door..
My ma saw me and she screaming."Nurul!!What are u doing?!!"
I cant say anything because i keep puking.
My ma saw those pills and called my bestfriend mya who was downstairs.
She was eating her maggi mee that time.Haha sorry dude for spoiling ur meals >.<
She ran fast upstairs and catch me up.
They chasing me to the clinic soon..
When i came for emergency,the doc can being 'kerek' pulak...
She said to me: Remaja sekarang mmg ikut hati tak pk panjang.
I looked at her and replied: Kalau tak ada pesakit, doc tak boleh carik makan. Diamlah!
She said back: Sombong ya kamu..
And i said: I've come here as ur medical patient and stop talking too much because i'll pay. If u taknak rawat, then i go to other clinics!
The doc seems angry but she stop saying anything and started to nursing me.
Im ok a couple minutes after that.
And focus on him back..
He called me many times,said sorry and ask me for apologized.
HEY BEBY,it was my fault.not urs..
Im the one who should say sorry here.All the times,u were the one who "mengalah" for me....
Please,iloveyousomuch..
Forgive me.Stop saying u hate me.
Sorry for my weakness,and i'll change to be better day by days..
Iloveu beby,thanks for supporting me and accept me the way i am.
Always....
MWAHHHH!!!!!