Sunday, July 25, 2010
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Today is March 3th, 2010, Wednesday..
Im waking up at 6 plus plus oclock in the morning and it was late already to take my "secret" shower..
Im fast-moving to the bathroom and made those flowers with saffron and mixed them into
the bath-tub..
It was smells good,clean and slowly im step inside the tub..
Grrrr...sejuknya! That was first what my foot felt when im stepping inside.
Im lying down and stay..I feel fresh and peaceful..
And suddenly..
someone knocking my bathroom's door..
Im asking.. "Mama?"
No answer... And again im asking.. "Mama,is that u infront?"
Still no answer... I kept thinking on my mind, thats just an illusion..
Plus..this few days, my mind seems like being so cold and cant thinking well..
Im lying down back and close my eyes..
I miss him.. and im thinking about him, berangan2 awhile.. HAHAHA..
and suddenly again.. my bathroom's door been knocked!
"Who is there!!" Im yelling a bit..plus,takut takut berani gak ar.. =.=
Still there's no answer..
Im not bringing my cellphone together,
and my ma was downstairs..
Can i open the door? Or maybe just wait and reading some Doa?
But im inside the bathroom..
Ahh! I dont care.. Tuhan di mana2, and im starting reading Doa that ustad told me..
After 10mins, there were no more sounds outside..
Slowly im opened my bathroom's door and nothing outside..
Im taking my shirt and short pants, and went downstairs with only using my towel..
I told mama about that, and she said i need to be strong...
Someone is hating me and he want to see me down...
Yes...
Today,
Ustad and his friends will come again and "rawat" me...
Thanks to him...for being such calm and concern lover while im having those problems..
Always stay by my side, and he was crying when im starting to forget him...
I will fight for him.. No one is better than this guy.. Every single days,
he will keep smsing me..calling me..to know hows my condition...
I love u beby..Thanks for being my best buddy,brother and lover...
I love u so damn damn much sayang....
<333